these are my confessions.

1. i am sitting in the airport right now, waiting for my flight to board.. and i could not be happier. okay i guess i could be if i were in the vegas airport haha. but you catch my drift.
2. airports are confusing, HUGE, and difficult.
3. i pretty much lied to everyone about my final exam grades with the exception of two people. its embarrassing! and why do they need to know? its none of their business. adding 5 or 10 points to my score is not a sin.
4. i now fully understand the phrase "purple mountains majesty." yesterday, i was walking home and the sun was setting and the snow was on the mountains and somehow they just turned this beautiful shade of purple. i tried to run inside and grab my camera.. but it didnt really work haha. i reminded myself of my mom. it was weird. utah is beautiful.
5. im not going to go as far as to say that i like the snow.. but i'll admit it is kind of growing on me. its so pretty! i stared at the mountains for like five minutes straight yesterday and then realized how stupid i looked and stopped. but who knew the snow was so exciting?! look at this snowman...
crazy! my mind was blown. at least 3 other snowmen this size were created this week.
6. i'm 4 seats away from this boy in my ward.. i cant remember his name. woops. i feel like a failure. my calling (ward greeter) is supposed to make me get to know everyone in the ward. uhg.
7. i'm turning 19 next week.. and i'm kind of freaking out. where did this year go!? i've been graduated for more than 6 months. what the crap is going on haha.. i dont want to grow up!
8. i sold a text book back this week and got $87 back. it kind of made my week.
9. i will miss the cannon center, and the girls from my floor. aside from that, i could leave provo forever and be perfectly content.
10. i didnt charge my computer yesterday, and i really want to watch mean girls on the plane. so im getting off.




okay. so i am totally in the christmas-zone right now. i've been listening to christmas music aalllllll day long. and i know im totally gonna regret saying this... but i may or may not kind of almost semi-like the snow. i suppose we have a love-hate relationship. i fell on my butt twice yesterday. it was great.

anyway, in honor of christmas i wanted to share my two favorite christmas songs of all time.

1. Josh Groban "Believe"
this song is AMAZING. i love love love him! it's from polar express... and i called my mom yesterday and told her to send me christmas songs just so i could have this one song. i could listen to it over and over for the rest of the month. and as a matter of fact, i will.

2. Aly & AJ "Greatest Time of Year"
I LOVE THIS SONG. my play count is already 14 and i just started listening to christmas music like yesterday. it gets me so pumped up. i remember listening to this song on my ipod on christmas eve because i couldnt sleep. hahaha. jeeze. its like one of my favorite songs ever... not just in the christmas category.

anyway. those are my two faves. i hear t swift has a christmas album out... and so does david archuleta. i'll have to check those out asap!!

this is most definitely the best time of year. i love everything about christmas. the spirit, the food (in relief society this week, i talked about my mom's egg nog cheesecake and people gasped), the presents, the tree, the mistletoe, the hot chocolate, the sledding, and just the fact that everyone is so happy and giving at this time of year.

i turn 19 this christmas... daaaaang. thats old. i cant believe my bff alex westmoreland will be 20 on christmas eve. holler! well. thats all i have to say at the moment... i lost 9 pounds since thanksgiving break! WOO. i definitely am starting to make some new years resolutions haha.. i wanna be prepared. wouldnt it be cool to say i ran 365 miles in one year? i think that might be one of them.

11 days till i go home :)
17 days till christmas/birthday celebration!



happy happy happy.

its thursday morning, 1:40 a.m., and all is well.

not sure what it is about this week... i was fully prepared to come back emo and depressed after spending a week in glorious las vegas. (i mean, come on. who wants to go from VEGAS to PROVO? talk about down-grade) but guess what? i'm not emo or depressed.


-maybe its because i just finished my last paper like five minutes ago, meaning i wont have to write another one until next semester!
-maybe its because i got my vegas fix in for a few weeks
-maybe its the warm feeling i get inside when i think about going to american heritage lecture TWO more times!! thats it!!
-maybe its because i was actually social for once tonight. i went and played rockband with a bunch of people from my ward. it felt good because 1) i loooove rockband and 2) i looooove talking to people. (i knew all of those hours playing in high school would not go wasted. i impressed a lot of people tonight with my expertise)
-maybe its the fact that NEXT THURSDAY (exactly one week from this very moment) will be my last day of classes for this semester
-maybe its because i got to spend five nights in a comfortable bed last week
-maybe its because the christmas decorations alllll over campus. including my very own taylor hall :) tonight floor council strung christmas lights all along the floor ceiling. pretty.
-maybe its the fact that i can wear all of my nordstrom coats now because its cold as shi- outside
-maybe its because a friend problem got resolved last week when i was home :) i feel like a weight has been taken off my chest!
-maybe its because i got to see afton WAY more than expected last week. I. LOVE. HER. like honestly.... can i have a baby?! ahahaha. she loves me. she cried when i tried to hand her off to someone else.
i woke up to her in my bed on thanksgiving morning hahahha. weird family. so naturally, i had to take pictures. she is so stinking cute.
-maybe its because subway has a new menu item.. chicken cordon bleu melt! holy crap. heaven.
-maybe its because i feel better about next semester. i think i have my classes the way i want them, and every time i think about getting into the elementary ed program i want to freaking jump! i am so excited to be a teacher. a couple weeks ago, i was SO down and discouraged because i'm failing like everything and i was so overwhelmed with life and school and then i went to this el ed seminar... and it got me all pumped up again. i just need to focus.
-maybe its because i came back to provo with a package and a letter awaiting for me! i love love love getting mail. it easily makes any day better. (hint hint) (haha just kidding) (okay but really)
-MAYBE its because my parents got a new mac and i am so excited for them, and i am even more excited about the fact that we can SKYPE now!! i came home sunday night, and i've already had two skype sessions with the fam. maybe if i knew i would love skyping with them this much, i would have donated some serious money to their mac fund.

i love this picture.. we look like sisters huh? i love her.

basically. i'm happy. dont know why... because its FREEZING and i should be stressed out of my mind with finals... but... i dont know. haha. its all good. i get to go home in 16 days! cross your fingers for me and my final exams :) at least i know i'll get an A in my biology lab... stupid bacteria